look at my mood sun...

doesn't it suck when you realize one of your best friends has no interest in you as a friend??? robyn's actions, comments, lack of interest in my happiness, and pleasure in my romantic loneliness leads me to the conclusion that she never got over me. the girl, whom i deluded myself into believing just wanted to be my best friend, is still in love with me. i have held myself back from romance in fear of hurting her for the last time. i have put her feelings before mine for the last time. i can't be friends with someone who has no interest in my well being.

at this point, i am so angry and upset that i am completely and utterly numb... when will i learn i can't always put everyone else's feelings before my own...

i do believe there is such thing as being too selfless. you shouldn't have to hurt yourself so badly to make others happy.